TweetyGirl

So I haven’t been doing so well lately with my “new lifestyle change”.  I always seem to fall back into a rut.  I know in my head what I need to do to accomplish this task.  I probably could write a book on diet and exercise but I always seem to fail at following through.  I am thinking I may start blogging more often and getting my feelings out there.  Maybe that will help me from not keeping it all in and eating away at me cause I always end up having a binge.  I used to keep a diary/journal for many many years and it was so nice to write my feelings down.  I really felt like I had this friend that was always there for me to listen to all of my thoughts and just what was happening in my life.  So I guess this is the start of a new way to reach for my goals.  As I used to tell my diary “thanks for listening”

I thought maybe it would be good to get my frustrations down.  I was just thinking this morning how hard it is raising my 14 yr. old son.  He tries my patience every single minute of the day.  I love him more than anything and would do anything for him but sometimes I just don’t understand him.  I am hoping it is because he is just trying to become a man.  I am a single mom and his dad is not so influential in his life.  Hopefully I am raising him to be a good, decent young man.  Sometimes when he does some crazy things I think I must be doing something wrong.  He will hang up on me when we are on the phone and he will roll his eyes till I think they will be stuck.  He will give me the silent treatment.  Here I thought we were so close up until he turned 14 then it seems like I don’t know him at all.  I know we will make it through these times and I know he loves me and his little brother but sometimes I just think WOW! is he part devil.  Then sometimes he is the sweetest most polite kid I’ve ever met.  Okay, maybe teenage boys get their period in their own way.  I don’t know I’ll keep trying to understand him.  I hear there is a wonderful book called “Raising Cane” about raising boys.  I think I will check it out of the library.  I feel better already just writing it down.

to my son’s friend’s birthday party.  Tonight they are going to an all you can eat Brazilian style restaurant.  You have this disc on your table and one side is red and one side is green and when you turn it over to green, these men come over with meat on a spit and start carving.  They keep coming until you turn your disc over to red.  I’ve never been but I hear it is a meat fest.  Probably good for those on protein only diets.  It does sound like a cool idea but not good for those of us trying watch our portion control.  I know he is going to have a great time. 

Happy Saturday!  I am starting on my new journey today.  It is actually a very old journey to me but I am not getting any younger and I want to be healthy for my children.  I am a 42 year old single mom with 2 handsome boys that mean everything to me.  But I need to start thinking about myself so I can be here for them for a very long time.  I hope to completely change my lifestyle.  I want to stop sitting in front of the TV so much and get out and exercise.  I hope this is the best journey I have ever taken.